Tuesday, February 26, 2008

God's Outside Shovelling Snow

My daughter Soriah asked me how God created the Universe and this is what I said to her. That everything, thought, feelings, matter, creation, the Universe, was Energy; even, God. And God created Energy and Energy created God. Which helps, I hope, those who ask if God created the Universe, then who or what created God?

I suggest this circular exercise as a way of understanding God; because the hierarchists who see God as the ultimate also try to answer that question by saying well, God always was, which any child can see the fallacy thereof. Energy created God and God created Energy might better illustrate what I'm trying to show; except I don't want to provide easy answers to the lazy of mind. That's what religion does, and even philosophy, providing labels and rules of conduct that seem, on close inspection, to be whack (way out of :)

I note that religious texts are long when it come to telling you what to do but short when it comes to describing the ultimate. In other words, how can you use limited human understanding to define what has no limitations? And the holy books, while divinely inspired, are filtered through human consciousness, and therefore have holes in them. As the finest examples of literature, I love them, even the atheistic writings of Phillip Pullman and the Buddhists, even, the Gnostic library.

But this is what I say, in simple language instead of the complicated verbal structures of the religiosi. God is the creator of the Universe, but not the perfect, realised, being you would like him/her/it to be. What if God was perfect and imperfect, wasn't complete, but was, a slob just like us? (Joan Osborne)

Seeking completion, like us?

So who (or what) should we pray to? Ourselves (ye are gods) or God (we are nothing) ?

Just enjoy the ride. Ask what our purpose of existence is. To find, to understand, to experience, God. Then you'll see God everywhere, and in the everyday existence of all, without old men with white beards describing an old man with a white beard, or even a genuine saint like Paramahansa Yogananda describing a reflection of a reflected experience through his guru.

The Sufi Muslim quest to experience the ecstatic vision of God is the journey we must all undertake, even those who do not believe. Muslims believe that the night in Ramadhan, Laylatul Qadr, when the Prophet Muhammad flew to Jerusalem on his mystic steed Burak, has the power to bestow on believers the very same experience. My own mother had the experience of a Divine Light on that night, but I say, the least of you, has already had that experience and just need to be helped to see that.

So get this straight, God doesn't expect worship, or prayer, or fear. How you see God is a reflection of you, even if God isn't a reflection.

Oh, God exists, all right, whether you believe or not. God seeks only to help you see. Set Creation in motion and left the Universe to you. You created the rest yourself. (Even that is within God's purpose) If there was karma as a result of your actions, or inability to see, that was up to you. If you asked for help, you got it in one way or the other. That God loves you is for you to see. You can feel it in a hundred different ways, regardless of how much suffering there is.

Because, you see, God has chosen karma, and to be reborn, just like you. And lives, and suffers, just like you. To help you, God, incarnates here every once in a while. That has always been the promise. And if you should ever meet that being, you'll know. Not in a fireworks kind of way, but the light and peace you feel in that presence, and forever afterwards.

God comes as a soldier and a priest and a leader and a teacher and lover and child. You will see God in all of God's creation, but, if you look for that person here on Earth, then too will you find him. God is a woman in a man's form, a man seeking to find wholeness, a child that has the whole world before it.

What should you ask of God? Not a lottery win please. Not a perfect love nor a perfect world. That is yours already, if you know where to look. Maybe not now, but one day. And you are already within Gods' love, and may you have many many conversations with God, without talking to your own ego..

So if you ask, where's God, and why isn't he here to help sort out the world? Right now, he's outside, shovelling the snow.

Monday, January 28, 2008

The Revolution Begins Now

I have always held that Prophecy and Psychism was the same thing, though of course different in matters of degree. The Psychic sees things as they might happen, the Prophet sees things as they are. Both have visions, both are touched with the Divine. The difference is one of Time and Space. The prophets Abraham, Moses and Muhammad appeared at a particular time and place, when people were ready. Then they changed the world.

Yet these were people first, with flaws and imperfections. And their religions were, respectfully, incomplete. The biggest problem was they were filtering the vision through their human consciousness, and the people who received their wisdom did so through the filter of their human ego. I also look at Christianity, Buddhism and Hinduism and the Pagan as different ways of connection with the Divine Being, but now, much altered from the original intent. Never mind. Each person has within themselves that spark which allows us to discern truth from falsehood.

Yet we must first free ourselves from the burdens of the Human Condition and understand, truly understand, the things we have lost: the memories of past lives, the lessons we were supposed to learn, the history we are fated to repeat, over and over again. Yet, this has been my promise from time immemorial: when humanity would be in need, I would incarnate.

Pluto went into the sign of Capricorn on January 25, 2008. After 12 years in Sagittarius during which it kicked religion and other spiritual structures around it now will kick around the material structures of finance and government. Whether it transforms, or destroys, those structures, will be up to you. But change will happen, regardless (There will be some further last minute changes to Religion and Spirituality this year then next year will be major kick ass time)

Is humanity governed by the stars? No, those are signs of stages and cycles of personal and world growth and contraction. It can inspire those who can read them, it can warn, and it can be a tool for change.

I wrote a book called The Way of Atlan in 1977. I had to wait till now before I felt people were ready to see it, complete. The Book, and I, were a work in progress. No matter how often I tried to teach, people weren't ready. Now the future prophesied within it lies before us, and I will fulfill my purpose, and call upon you to fulfill yours.

When I teach, I say it isn't for you to follow me, but I am still a leader. If I am a healer then I don't teach you to heal others but heal yourself first. You do not have to have any special gifts except that which is unique to you and I will still teach you if you ask. If I inspire writers artists musicians healers teachers and creative people to bring lightness to the world then I will be happy to have helped..There is a whole generation of young people who will change the world.

So I welcome all of humanity, without regard for the differences that divide you, into my tent. I will give you peace. But be aware that I am not ever what you expect, or want me to be, nor am I fit to be on a pedestal. I am of the same human form as you, imperfect and flawed. But if I show you the perfection inside me, it will surprise you, for it will be a reflection of that which is inside you.

But there also was a spiritual person who recognised who I was right away, yet had a problem because I ate meat. My reply was to the effect of the Son of Man coming and eating meat and drinking strong wine, and people would not believe. That will be up to you, because the strongest obstacle to your learning will be your own resistance to change.

Those who are meant to meet me will find a way to do so. Those who are meant to learn from me will see that it isn't about spiritual enlightenment or magical activism. It is about the space and time that you are in, and how to work with that. But the Revolution I speak of will take place not in blogs or protest marches or occult practices. It will take place first within you, and then, through taking responsibility for the state of the world.

There's a final passage in The Way of Atlan I'd like to leave you with:

"Impossible for Humanity to change, you say? People believe that because they've eroded their belief in themselves, in a thousand little ways. But still have they not searched for something? Have they not known there was something more to their existence, somewhere? They waited for the Way, and the Way is here. And humanity will change and dedicate itself to a new nobility, a nobility of the spirit it always had".

"There is a place that is holy, here on Earth. I shall be waiting there".

That place is inside you.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

The person who inspired me

This essay was written by my daughter Soriah for a school project. She had to write about a Canadian from another culture who inspired her, and tie that in with how it was to be a child growing up in a multi-cultural household, while still being Canadian.

We ended up choosing me as the person who inspired her (no surprise:) but this had to do with the whole subject of culture, multi-culturalism and the melting pot theory of America where newcomers try to be more American than the native born and still are considered less if they're of a different background, religion or colour.

But Canada welcomed me, and while it allows people to retain their own culture as long as they practice Canadian values of tolerance and fairness, it was the freedom it gave me to grow in my own path that I love most about her. If there was one country in the world where I'd wish to raise my children, it would be Canada.

I enjoyed helping Soriah with the project for this reason, but the words, and feelings, are hers, and here, she's the person who inspired me.

The person who inspired me
By Soriah Feie Naseer

Essay plan:

What: Meditation, healing, writing, teaching, and helping autistic and other patients.

Who: My dad, Naseer Ahmad. He’s a holistic doctor, spiritual teacher and writer.

Where: Pakistan, England, Japan, and Canada.

When: Came to Canada in 1970.

Why: He inspires me to become a writer and healer. He and my mother belong to different cultures and this is part of me but I’m still Canadian.

The person who inspires me the most is my dad, Naseer Ahmad. He came to Canada from Pakistan in 1970. He’s a holistic doctor here in Toronto. He’s not a famous person, but he affected my life a lot.

My dad was born in Pakistan from Indian parents but grew up in England and Japan. When he was a child he could see spirits and energy. (So can I!) After leaving Japan he went back to Pakistan where he first went to military school. When he couldn’t join the Air Force he went to University and studied History. He also studied Spirituality, Healing and Psychism. He came to Canada because he felt it was the right place for him.

When he came to Toronto he started classes in meditation and healing. It was easy for him to adjust to life in Canada because he had known many other cultures and English was his first language. He also felt Canadians were nicer to people who’re different.

He wrote two spiritual books, in 1974, and 1977. One of them, Man From Atlan, about past lives, was published in 1990. He also went to England and many other countries where he studied alternative medicine. Since I have Autistic brothers and a sister he started a clinic where he helped them and many other children get better.

This affected my life because it made me want to be a healer too. Another thing I like about him is that he’s a writer. I would like to be able to communicate well too.

We have different backgrounds in our home, since my mother is Hungarian, and father Pakistani, but they tell me I’m a Canadian, not Hungarian-Pakistani Canadian. I was born here, and so were my brothers and sisters. We speak English at home, and while I would like to visit India, Pakistan and Hungary, we’re Canadian. When my grandparents visit us I see they’re different and that’s nice. But Canada inspires me to feel free to be whatever I want to be, and not something else.

Monday, December 31, 2007

A personal history of India and Pakistan

I wrote the following in my December 21, 2007 article The End Of The World: "this coming full moon, on the 23rd-24th, is an especially powerful one. with planetary aspects shifting from the Sun and Moon, Mars, Jupiter and Pluto, the Galactic Center, and the solstice. Expect some dramatic shift, on the planet or within yourself between now and the end of the year. Be careful to avoid disaster. Embrace the lessons you must learn".

This message was addressed to every person in the world, and came after a healing meditation I did on December 16. I warned you many times, I bring great change, and there will be more to come.


On December 27, ex-Pakistani PM Benazir Bhutto was assassinated as she campaigned for another term in office. Incidentally she was killed in the same park where a previous PM, Liaquat Ali Khan, was assassinated in 1951. That she was a brave human being I acknowledge; that she was part of a corrupt society and elite which routinely oppressed and killed others I know. It even appears that she had her own brother killed, as a threat to her power when PM, and in the end she reaped her own karma. Incidentally, she went to school with my brother, and I was talking about her just a month ago. My message was to her as well, but now, she, like us all, must embrace the lesson we must learn in the year to come.

Still, since Pakistan is in the news now, a personal history is called for.

India has always been a crossroads of traders, invaders, and civilizations. The original inhabitants were Dravidian animists, who worshipped nature and the spirits dwelling within it. Later Babylonian Sumerian Egyptian influences can be found in the ruins of the cities of Moenjodaro and Harappa, which existed in the Indus valley around 3000 B.C. Aryan invaders destroyed the civilizations around 1550 B.C. and pushed the darker skinned Dravidians further south.
Hinduism and Buddhism became the religions of India, then the Islamic invasions of the early 8th century A.D. added a third to the mix. Successive waves of Muslim invaders took over most of the country, and while they assimilated themselves into the Indian culture they were, because of their military superiority and appeal to marginalised Hindus, a very strong influence in Indian history. Much of the animosity between Hindus and Muslims stems from this thousand- year period of Muslim dominance.

My parents were Indian Muslims, mom's family from Hyderabad Deccan, and dad from Uttar Pradesh in the mountains of Northern India. My family has a tradition of physicians on the one side and Sufi Muslim saints on the other. I am a Syed, a descendant of the Prophet Muhammad, but from my earliest memory I was never a Muslim, my belief systems ran more towards Buddhist and Hindu Philosophy. Yet, if there is a Muslim that appeals to me it would be Dara Shikoh, the Mughal prince that should have been Emperor, who sought the common aspects of all the religions of the world, and Sheikh Abdul Qader Jilani, the Sufi mystic who was my ancestor. I will write more about Islam later, but this is about the people of India and Pakistan, and their shared history and karma.

When the Indian subcontinent was divided in 1947 between Hindu India and Muslim Pakistan, my parents were forced to move to Pakistan. Several hundred thousand people on both sides were killed in communal violence. I was born in Lahore, Pakistan, but my roots lie in India. So I love both countries, and don’t see any conflict in that.

When India was partitioned the agreement was that areas under direct British control were to be divided on the basis of religion, so Muslim areas would go to Pakistan, Hindu areas to India, and the semi-independent princely states were to hold elections to decide which way the people wanted to go. West and East Pakistan was formed earlier, but there were three states that could go either way. Hyderabad and Junagadh, with Muslim rulers but a Hindu majority population, were annexed right away by India but the Hindu ruler of Kashmir, with a majority Muslim population, delayed holding a vote. When tribal soldiers under Pakistani control invaded Kashmir, the Maharajah ceded the state to India. The two countries went to war and the United Nations had to force a ceasefire in 1949, with both sides promising to hold a plebiscite to allow the people to decide their future. To date that hasn't happened. Here's a background on that:

http://www.guardian.co.uk/kashmir/Story/0,2763,727109,00.html

The people of Kashmir, if given a choice, would rather have their own state, but it's unlikely that either India or Pakistan would allow that to happen.

The sources of many of India and Pakistan’s rivers are in Kashmir, and if India were to allow Kashmir to leave the Union, the Punjab’s Sikhs would likely be next, and India has already fought a dirty war to keep the Sikhs within the fold.

India and Pakistan have fought 4 wars so far, in 1947-1949, 1965, 1971 and 1999. This time around, both sides have the Bomb, so are unlikely to use it, as it would finish the Central Asian Oil pipeline project. It would also destabilise the region. The chances of another conventional war is still there, so watch for developments over the next few days.

My father was a diplomat, (Corr: he wasn't the ambassador, in the accepted sense of 'diplomat'. he was in the foreign service)  so I grew up in England and Japan. Even learned Japanese, now forgotten, alas. I had no feeling of belonging to any one religion , so instead choose a more universal Buddhist-Hindu philosophy and personal spiritual belief system that draw heavily on the secret history of the original races of humanity.

When dad's posting to America fell through we returned to Pakistan where I finished University. Most of my family was in the military, so I went to Air Force school but failed the medical exam to join the Air Force. Another door opened, and while I went to Canada in 1970, many of my friends on both sides of the border fought (and died) in the 1971 war.

If left alone, the people of India and Pakistan would be at peace. They have the same root culture, but are divided by religion and a thousand years of divisive politics. Wherever I go, I have a common bond with Indians, Pakistanis, Muslims, Hindus and Buddhists. Many of the thinking people would choose to live together in peace and work together to solve the common problems of the subcontinent. There is a quiet anti-war movement on both sides of the border, but jingoistic politicians, single-minded military men, and religious leaders drown their voices out. Both sides have worked to destabilise the other country, with assassinations, sabotage and atrocities committed by so-called terrorists.

There has to be a solution to the Kashmiri conflict. The Kashmiris had self-rule until 1989, when a heavy-handed federal Indian government took over the state government of Farooq Abdullah. India has committed gross human rights violations as documented by Amnesty and Human Rights International. Over 50,000 Kashmiris have been killed. Guerrillas operating from the Pakistani side have also committed atrocities. Only International mediation would solve it, but International interests ARE at play here, so let’s keep the world (and India and Pakistan) in a permanent state of weakness.

Pakistan used to be a pretty tolerable state when I lived there. No longer; it got involved in Afghanistan and has descended into violence and drugs. It is incredibly corrupt and run by a military cabal. The civilian 'democratic' institutions are worse, if that were possible. India looks down with smugness at its enemy's problems, while the forces of globalisation eat away at its own very fabric and culture, destroys it's small scale agriculture and creates an ecological disaster. Both sides are held together by the karma of their joint birth.

If left alone, both sides could eventually solve their problems, but are stuck in a state of mutual hostility and paranoid distrust. I can’t change that, the people who belong there will have to wake up and work for it.

This is the problem: Neither side is in a true state of spirituality. Ironic, considering the numbers of fake gurus and teachers inundating the West. The two countries where so many great religions flourished is possessed by the illness of the world, the pursuit of money and power. Neither side can act in good faith. The extremely rich and snobbish elites that could make a difference, couldn't be bothered. The rest are stuck in a fatalistic philosophy of karma=kismet. This will only change if they choose to follow me. And if not, whatever must happen, will, and the lives of the rich and powerful will be as dust.

I, who once was Krishna, the Christ who sought refuge in India; the Mahdi and hidden Imam who will heal Islam cannot return to the country of my birth until the people are ready.

My work is in North America, because I believe that the solutions to the problems of the world will come from here.

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

How to Heal your Heart



On this special Christmas Day 2007, I'd like to offer this to all of you, something I first wrote in 2001. The years ahead will be very difficult, but, I want to offer this message of love.

"Where is there love in this world?" I overheard a kitchen helper ask another in Toronto. A friend told me about her husband who could not love himself. A third is grieving over the end of a relationship. Now would be a good time, I think, to ask the question, is there love in the world, and how do we heal our broken hearts?

When I wrote 'Man From Atlan' in 1974 I saw that humanity's greatest challenges would come through its relationships: our relationships with each other, and our relationships with ourselves.

I met my Soul mate in 1974. There was this recognition that spanned several lifetimes, and I saw our previous lives together unfold like a movie. I saw the Soul mate as the greatest and most difficult of all karmic relationships. There could be great love, also great pain. And all relationships could be expressed in terms of karma and energy.

I don't believe in karma as punishment now, but then, in 1974, I did.

Karma doesn't even have to do with past lives, but the lesson that must be learned. And each person we connect with is the lesson we must learn, as we, too, are the lesson they must learn.

And when the lesson has been learned, the relationship changes, or ends.

My greatest lesson wasn't born of guilt, atonement, or the failures of the past. I'd learned to forgive myself, after all. The greatest lesson was what I had denied to myself, that I was a healer. And once I learned that, from my mate and then my children, I could heal others and myself.

Where is there love? First, why do we need love? I see the need for love as the need for balance, born of the divided soul of God. God is divided between the male and female energies, opposites and therefore there is no resolution.

The balance may be found through the third energy, that of the child. The feet are the Black Chakra, of the feminine energy of God. The White Chakra over the head is the masculine energy of God. And the Heart Chakra is the Child's energy, the balancer. What may be found in the Heart Chakra? Here is Artistry and Creativity, Healing, Relationships, Jesus, Compassion, and Love.

All or any of these are ways in which we may find balance, and to heal the heart, we must express all the things of the heart. The Sky God and Mother Earth made love and produced the race of humanity, who are the Children, and through the Child's energy of God is God healed and made whole.

So express your artistry and your healing and your love for others for are we not all the children of God, as well as your love for yourself for are you also not a child of God?

And do not say that you do not know, or never have known, love. You contain and are surrounded by an infinite reservoir of love; therefore it is always within you and outside of you. And when you love yourself, you will find love.

And the Soul mate is not the greatest love any more; the Spirit Mate is. You become the Spirit Mate of all when you realize that you can love all, equally, not a love that is born of ego or desire or need for completion, but friendship and compassion and love, for when you become love, then and only then can you find love.
And without love, how can you find peace?



The Pink Chakra


This is part of the Introduction to Spiritual Healing manual, but I am including it as a follow up to the article, "How to Heal your Heart".


When I started my spiritual healing practice I only worked with the 7 chakras because that was what I had read about.


Then I thought, Why are we ignoring the feet? and the answer was because it connects us to:
The Feminine, I've spoken about the thousands of years of suppression of the feminine energy of God and the development of a masculine language; even I have written of God as He.


The Material/Physical, and we've created an imbalance there as well. Where does our wealth and physical well being come from? The Earth, and if we've suppressed and exploited it then no wonder we're suffering the effects of financial difficulty and ill health. Look around you; the Earth is no longer able to nurture us.


Karma and responsibility, and we are afraid of it. Why do we suffer and why is life an ever-lasting struggle? Yet, there is a point when all the threads of our karma come together and that is around the time of conception, which memory is buried in what I call the Black, or Grounding Chakra. When an important memory such as that is forgotten, it creates an imbalance in all the other chakras, which cannot be healed without coming to terms with karma.


The answer lies within the Pink Chakra of Dharma. The Heart Chakra is incomplete, as it is no longer integrated with what I call the Higher Heart Chakra. (That name was suggested by one of my students, I like it)


The higher heart is located over the thymus gland. Oils such as tuna, salmon, cod, olive, all the essential fatty acids and the saturated oils such as coconut and palm feed its physical aspect. The spiritual action involved in nurturing it is to find your purpose in life, and follow your sacred path. And from the soul level, until you understand your karma and your higher heart, your heart chakra remains empty, and balancing your masculine and feminine energies is impossible.


The human race has come to a point where it must come to terms with its collective Karma by embracing its Dharma, and the answer lies within the Green Chakra of the Heart and the Pink Chakra of the Higher Heart.


©- Naseer Ahmad-2001

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Saving the rich from themselves



Matth: 19:23: Then said Jesus unto his disciples, Verily I say unto you, That a rich man shall hardly enter into the Kingdom of Heaven.

Ah, but do they really want to, or believe?

Every once in a while I meet the really, really rich. Not Rothschild rich, but more than I ever hope to have in this life anyway :) It’s an exercise, for me, and them.

Every spiritual teacher hopes to either: win the lottery, get a rich sponsor, or, lots of followers so they Could Do Good. Well, if your dharma is to teach, you will, whether you’re rich or not.

I learned early enough the power of how I could be rich, if I was prepared to compromise. I couldn't, and so, never did. I also have a principle; that if one helped me, in whatever way they could, then so too, would I help them. This brings me to the multi-million-billion-trillionaires I met.

Los Angeles 1993: This banker who owned a California bank, the one that financed film and oil deals, a front for the Mafia, came to see me. His wife had a back problem; I fixed that. When I treated him, the energy release of his sins and karma was so powerful that a glass book case shattered by it self. I saw, through my hands, the souls of the really rich.

We lived up the road from Stephen Spielberg and down from a Rothschild. Invited them both to a meditation. Neither showed up, alas.

Malibu 1993: This real-estate tycoon had a mansion where he’d be filming a porn movie on a Friday and hosting my meditation class on a Saturday. But he was kind to us, so I resolved to do what I could. The IRS was after him for 30 million, and I said I’d help. The next week the amount was reduced to 5 million, which he was happy to pay. Did he slip me a little something? No, but he certainly tried to pump me for more help. In the end, when we left California it was an ordinary person who used his credit card to fix my tires and brakes so we could go on to Texas.

Toronto 2000: A Filipino lady came to see me for spiritual healing. Her step-mother it turned out was a follower of a spiritual healer in the Philippines, who’d discovered one of the Japanese treasure hoards of Chinese gold and jewels from WWII.. a friend of the Marcos. The CIA was all over them; she’d already been cheated by people she trusted. Could I help them? By an interesting coincidence, my cousin headed a bank in the Philippines at the time. I might have helped, but it just wasn’t right, so I didn’t. Incidentally, she was the lady described in “The Christ sent his Disciple to New York”.

Iran 2007: I was approached by an Iranian businessman front for politicians who wanted me to help him get access to frozen bank accounts in the West. Now I’m no James Bond, nor am I a business man. I pray for people, and they are helped, if it serves a reason. First, there would be a test. An Iranian in London had a stroke; doctors couldn't get him out of a coma. I said I would help, and sure enough, he recovered completely. My friend won a court case and sold a property. His brother, a drug addict, was cured. But as to the bank accounts, there seemed something wrong about them, so that was that. I was there to create a nascent spiritual movement, and I did, and prevent war and an earthquake in Tehran, and that was also done. While there I met some incredibly rich people, and again and again, saw the compromises they had to make and how in the end, in gaining all the riches of the world, they gave up their souls. The power of the ego that enabled them to accomplish the material blocked them in attaining the spiritual.

I could make a living in my practice, and sell books, and one day perhaps, the movies would be made. (Hollywood was an experience in itself)

Yet again and again, the very rich came to me, seeing that I cared little for their trappings, and looking with longing at the peace within myself. Sooner or later, they’d run away, because the price of following me was too high..

Do I have certain powers? Yes, but they’re gifts, never to be misused. So I’m not here to help rich people become richer.

Is there a rich person who’s honest and incorruptible? I’m sure there is, just haven’t met any :)

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Spiritual Groups

One of the fearful and insulting aspects of modern thinking is the anti-religious aspect that passes as intellectual discourse. Personally, I believe that religion is a man-made construct which tells you there is a God, whereas spirituality is knowing it. But I still defend all religions in every possible way by pointing out that while great crimes were committed, so too was great good done in the preservation of our history, civilisation and cultures.

There is the innate knowing that exists inside every one, and yes, sometimes we need a teacher to bring that out. There is the personal yearning that exists inside everyone in trying to know God, however we express that being, and if we need to know the journey from life to death and beyond, the spiritual experience, then whatever path we take to increase that knowledge, is cool.

I've met many spiritual people and groups in the course of my travels, and we learned from each other, even if, indirectly. So I met Joseph Campbell in Japan in 1955, the year I had my spiritual awakening, and Shirley MacLaine arrived shortly after I left; her daughter went to my school. Her New Age book Out On A Limb describes her own process of spiritual awakening in the 70's, the same time I wrote Man From Atlan. I was always fond of her as an actress, so was happy she got published in 1983 (even though I'd been struggling for 9 years to find a publisher, good for her)

So I arrived in London in 1970 (according to Benjamin Creme's original prophecy) but settled in Canada where I taught meditation, even met the people who'd brought Mahareshi to America, and others. There was the Process, a group that says God is split into 4 personalities, Jehovah, Satan, Lucifer and Jesus. They asked me to join them, with a girl friend to be thrown in. Woo hoo. Hare Krishna was around too, a London gypsy wanted me to work with her as a psychic reader, a witch wanted me to join her for Wicca, none of them were my cup of tea, much as I wanted to help humanity.

Guru Maharaji was a guru who finally appeared in North America around 1974, proclaiming himself the incarnation of God. He's quite a character, and that translated into untold wealth. Telling his followers to be celibate, he promptly slept with many of his young female followers, while his associates molested children. In 1972 I met many of his ex-followers, who joined my meditation classes. I could have created a following, made money, chose not to. Likewise in London from 1975-79, when I was recognised by a guru as the incarnation of Christ, I refused to build a temple there. The time wasn't yet, and whatever I created would then be wrong. I just wrote my books, talked to people.

In my visits to the U.S. I came across many other groups. Manly P. Hall, founder of the Philosophical Research Society, was poisoned, and I was around to meet the people who tried to set up totally unsuitable individuals as trustees of the (enormously wealthy) Foundation. One of the ladies of the PRS even said, on reading Man From Atlan, "they couldn't believe a 24 year old had written that book" (so it must be a fake) And then Carlos Castaneda's (who was a great mystical anthropologist, at any rate) group argued who amongst them had the secret keys to the kingdom. Sad, really, how mystic groups that set out to share great knowledge implode, because they believe power=money. What brought my feelings to a head was what happened to a friend of mine in 1993. The wave of Indian gurus sweeping through the U.S., sleeping with their chelas, taking all their money, had just subsided. Still, on questioning one of them a little too rigorously, his followers picked her up and threw her into a swimming pool. Then she met another one with me, and this is what happened:
Swamis and Gurus

There was a yoga teacher who, feeling she deserved the title, changed her name to Swami M, proving that spiritual ego exists at every level. There was this guru in Los Angeles, late 1993, who was having a gathering to celebrate his promotion, from the ranks of sat guru to jad guru (like an Archbishop to a Cardinal); his devotees were going to weigh and then present him with his weight in gold. He saw me; when asked I said I healed people, so he made a show of inviting me to heal him in front of everyone. I asked afterwards, "when you talk about Kundalini, it's all Psychic Energy, isn't it?" "Yes", he replied.

He disappeared upstairs afterwards with some of his female followers, who were going to massage his legs. A friend tagged along. Later she told me he had French-kissed her. "Was he being spiritual, do you think?" "Well, they think that because they're 'spiritual' whatever they do is ok", I replied.

Why do so many gurus get caught having sex with their devotees? Why do they have control issues? (I believe it's a form of psycho-sexual control). Why do they zap people with psychic energy and encourage them to show such devotion and fall in love with them? I think it's because they come from ego (you could say the same about me :) and feed off the energy, which is a pity; you're all surrounded by the unlimited energy of God's love, and can tap into it whenever you wish. And love of the guru is NOT the same as love of God.

I have no problem with teachers like Rajneesh, who was open about his sexual practices. It's those who preach abstinence, or anything else, who need to walk the talk. I recognize the need for teachers and prophets to point the way to God, and show, by example, a way of life. In the end, God is inside you and around you, and you must make that journey by yourself, and your experience of God must be a personal one, not second hand or through someone else as a reflection of God.

And if a swami or a guru wants to stick his tongue down your throat, (or other body parts), it's up to you to choose if that's what you want.

©- Naseer Ahmad-2001

Back in Toronto, I started healing (see Journey of A Healer) and people started asking me to teach them. So next thing I knew, there was a fully fledged spiritual community which flourished in Toronto in the 90's until I left it to go back to the U.S. That journey has been written about as well, but the next step of that was that some of my students, became disciples. It wasn't an easy process, for me, or them. I was driven by my knowledge of the great need for healers who would help heal the planet. I knew the great changes that would be taking place. I was tired of being alone; there had to be a community of spiritual beings. I would support them, and they would support me.

Don't fear. I'm not asking you to drop everything and follow me. I did that in many lives, and things still got royally screwed up afterwards. If what I write makes you a better person, then that's enough. But the spiritual exercise of teaching, and gaining disciples, is a profound magical one nevertheless, that creates new healing forms on this planet. If you're drawn to meeting me, you will. And Cults? Every new movement is a cult, by defintion, so you're on your own figuring what I am about anyway.

My travelling days are drawing to an end, and will only take place again once I've met the people I'm supposed to meet. But if you see signs and portents, think of me..

This is my testament. I need to gather a hundred thousand people to learn what I have to teach, and with that I will change the planet.