Sunday, December 21, 2014

A Life of Purpose

Chloe, Arune and Raven in the Lake District, 2007

Why are we here? Discovering our purpose requires self-examination, including, of course, the illusions we live by that hold us back. Do what we can to help others, care about the world we leave for our children. Do not fear death. Do not regret anything.

I was sad not to make it to Flight School. That led to Canada.

I spent the first half of my working life not doing what I really wanted to do in medicine, but then got the chance to practice my spirituality.

While there was struggle in some areas of my life I ended up with three great loves and five lovely children, so, I am blessed.

To have children with autism was a challenge, but what I discovered with my research was enough to help hundreds of children, so again, it was an honour to have served.

To remember past lives and the gifts that came with it, not enough unless I could share with others.

We have the ability to heal ourselves.

Knowledge should be free.

You help because it comes from your heart, not for self aggrandizement.

Speak up against injustice. Make a difference.

To find your life's purpose, then first, you must discover your self.

From "astrology for beginners" by Joann Hampar:

Sagittarius ascendant: Outgoing personality and candor that throws people off guard. Your optimism inspires others; you help those who cannot help themselves. Fair-minded, you believe in equality for all. You live life to the fullest.

Capricorn Sun: Leadership qualities, honest and dependable. Your resolve is unmatched.

Scorpio Moon: Your passion for life helps give great success. You can motivate others and effect change. At your best when you channel your strong emotions to help others.

Aquarius Mercury: Processing information at warp speed, but conveying it more difficult. (Sigh, so true) Keen intuition and assessment help avoid problems before they happen.

Aquarius Venus: Humanitarian at heart, you prefer to be part of a bigger plan, group or organization with a purpose. Stir people up in a way that can educate them.

Aquarius Jupiter: Open-minded attitude about religion and spirituality, you embrace all faiths. Talent for innovation opens doors in scientific research. Get along with every one.

Libra Mars: Fair, nothing motivates like injustice. Generally easygoing, quite the warrior once cornered. Will fight to preserve freedom of choice. Relationships require balance between self-interest and self-sacrifice.

Libra Neptune: An idealist. Believes in love and peace. Idealizes those they love, sacrifices to maintain harmony.

Virgo Saturn: Detailed research or scientific study. Work is part of your nature. You tend to worry needlessly. (Who, me? :) Hard to relax.

Leo Pluto: The generation that challenged authority, and because they wanted change, they accomplished it.

Cancer Uranus:  You may have unique insight into the subconscious mind, your instinctive ability to understand emotional complexity enables you to counsel others.

Find who YOU are, and what moulds you, then you will discover your purpose. 

Saturday, November 29, 2014

Message From A Dove

Message from a spirit guide

My aunt 's sister passed away recently. She'd been suffering for many years. Had her in my special prayers all this time. Thought of her last week then got the news. Always remembered for her lovely smile.

This morning, Saturday November 29, got a very special message. I was washing dishes when a mourning dove thumped into the kitchen window in front of me, then flew off.

From my Pocket Guide To Spirit Animals-Understanding Messages From Your Animal Spirit Guides ~Dr. Steven Farmer: 


Express your love to as many people as possible in words and in deeds, even in small yet significant ways.

The soul of someone who has recently passed is making a smooth, peaceful, and joyous transition.

This is a powerful time of prophecy and clear vision, and now more than ever you're able to glimpse the future.

You're experiencing a spiritual renewal that's the result of a period of intense self-examination and challenges.

This is a good time to stay at home and enjoy your domestic side.

It's important to nurture yourself with loving care.

To my aunt and cousins; our condolences.

But it is still a message for all of you.

Friday, September 19, 2014

God Bless Scotland

From Arthur's Seat, Edinburgh 2007
I didn't want to write this until the results were in, but my hope still was, that Scotland would  stay within the union.
The results are now in with 55.3% voting NO for the question of Independence and 44.3% voting YES. Congratulations to the people of Scotland in this proud moment. That there was an 85% voting turn out, and, 16 yrs old being allowed to vote, were the amazing notes to this democratic process and the general civility of debate and discussion between both sides was appreciated. Alex Salmond's concession speech brought tears to my eyes when he said we are all Scots men and women and we move forward together.
There are other separation movements, like the now much set back Quebec referendums and ongoing noises in Catalonia and the Basque regions of Spain. From a previous life, and a book I wrote 40 yrs ago so my feelings are constant:
"Yes, he was a Catalan, he thought. And at school, he had seen the map and heard his teacher say, This is Spain. But though he had been born a Spaniard, he belonged to an even greater world. How small a place must we cling to, he thought, remembering how Catalonia had looked on the map of the world. Can we then go on and say of even smaller things, say, this is my village and I am different from the man in the next village? Our village should declare its independence from the rest of Spain, he said laughingly."
I visited Scotland twice in 2007. Once with my family as we travelled all over including ferry trips to the Isles, and once, when I was helping friends set up a healing center in the North of England but also made a trip to Edinburgh where from the mount known as Arthur's Seat I took this picture looking out over the city and castle. Looking and knowing there still was much ahead for these proud people and history to be made.

I've written about my feelings for this place called Great Britain formed by the Act Of Union 1707 Rule, Britannia
but should tell you that my feelings for Scotland from Robert the Bruce's time and The Declaration Of Arbroath 1320 have also, been constant.
"For as long as but a hundred of us remain alive, never will we on any conditions be brought under English rule. It is not for glory, nor riches, nor honours that we are fighting, but for freedom — for that alone, which no honest man gives up but with life itself."
From the Declaration, here, are principles laid down then that define those of us who care for justice:
  1. "Firstly, it set the will and the wishes of the people above the King."
  2. "Secondly, the manifesto affirmed the nation's independence in a way no battle could, and justified it with a truth that is beyond nation and race. Man has a right to freedom and a duty to defend it with his life."
These are the principles that we need to be reminded of, in the time to come, and God Bless Scotland for this reminder.

But I still feel its place is within the Union, for it is in union that we can become whole, if I may use a spiritual metaphor. England has lost its way. I saw that when I was there in 2007. And now, still bombing Iraq and crooks from around the world driving up London housing prices and buying football clubs? A system in which pedophilic networks are covered up? PM David Cameron's speech this morning was just, more of the same, jockeying for stasis.

But the problems are real. Aside from issues of unemployment, a stagnant economy, privatization of public resources and closing down the social safety net, there is a spiritual malaise sad to observe from afar.

With the extreme weather and other reminders being sent your way, I say this: watch out for shocks ahead, if you will not change.

Yet, there is much magic in these British Isles. And, within you.

Saturday, September 06, 2014

Hare Krishna, Hare Rama

Hare Krishna

Hare Rama
I've been seeing forward, and reporting the spiritual crisis facing this planet for a long time now. I've seen it in the forms of psychopathy that occurs in ordinary murder as well as in the money class and political leaders, the wars that occur just in time for someone to profit from it, the destruction of our environment, the corruption of society, the fertility crisis and damage to our gene pool, which I hope to continue writing about as long as I live. And, when I am gone, trust me, I will incarnate again to help whoever prays, and asks for help.
I've written how I hold 4 meditations a year, and how they seem to coincide with significant events both before and after. No, I do not cause them, nor do I cause death and destruction. You, do, with your blindness and inability to change, to not accept a path of inner and outer peace, the path of spirituality. I am strictly neutral in this process. Karma is karma but I still help. Neutrality is a state of mind, not a policy of non-intervention, see?
I am a healer, but, I also teach. And if lessons are needed, then so be it. And as always, I am there.
There were a lot of events that took place. The ongoing barbarism of Gaza, civil war in Ukraine (aside: an astrologer said Putin, a Libra would have some sort of reckoning, I thought he would get stronger. My column on Russia will be next)
So, my meditation on August 24, 2014, planned well in advance. A 6.0 magnitude earthquake hit the Bay area that day Napa Valley Earthquake and I am grateful no one died, I have friends there, and quite a connection with California. As my readers know, I actually held a meditation in Northridge on January 15, 1994, and when I placed my hands on the earth, felt it move. The 6.7 magnitude Northridge Earthquake hit Los Angeles just two days after. Then, an idiot on Twitter said this to me:
Have a good night Ergon. Stay the hell away from Joan Rivers. I like her. Don't send her to heaven just yet.- Sept 03
I wish they didn't do that. Joan Rivers passed away the next day, after complications from a minor procedure. RIP. And now he wants to know if I caused it or claim to have caused it. I first came across her in a Playgirl (bunnies?) interview in 1977 where she said "God, I hate the Arabs" then just recently, her callous comments about Gaza, grated. But no, I didn't hate her in turn.

However, and this is where you call it a coincidence or whatever: this gentleman is referring to the death of Terri Schiavo: she was in a coma too, I prayed for whatever was best for her, she passed into spirit. And now, Joan Rivers, and it was a mercy, and she is in a better place. Unlike him.

This is what I do. I help ease the passing into spirit, and the question of what happens when we do, or how to do it, is one of my interests and subjects of study.

Never mind. Death is sad, but just another step in our journey. It is the lack of spiritual knowledge that bothers me, because of the untold harm it causes, but, that's how it is. If something needs to happen to restore balance, it will. Revolutions, earthquakes, personal events.

But there is much that is good, and positive, to report.

Someone who lost a job, found a better one.

A cat was lost, then found again. A message of why do these things repeat themselves?

Someone in the UK mourned the loss of a pet rabbit this year; a wild hare showed up in our back yard. (Pictured here) It even had the same markings as the one who'd passed! Sorry, that isn't Joan River's spirit (smile) but the same pet, returned again. It wasn't for us, but a message for someone else, received, and hasn't been seen since.

Speaking of hares, they represent fertility, and someone we care for just told us she's expecting again, that from a previous story of how spirits go where they are needed and have the chance to do good. Plus another friend's daughter in the U.K.

In mythology, Krishna and Rama are avatars of God. And what else is mythology but a retelling of the spiritual or religious experience? And hares/rabbits are in the native tradition messages to get away, seek refuge from negative energies.

Seek refuge in God.

Hare Krishna,

Hare Rama.

Sunday, July 27, 2014


Gazan girl, rummaging through the rubble to get her school books
What is it that people cannot understand? Because quite frankly, you're all losing the plot. This inhumane attack by satanic monsters on a defenseless population for 21 days and some are still making excuses for this? You should be ashamed. No amount of hand wringing will change what you allowed to happen. Because, make no mistake, until you go on the true spiritual path you do not know what lies ahead of you.
It is called wilful blindness, and it applies to all of us. I was reminded recently how I said something 9 years ago and it wasn't done, to sad consequences. The things I've been saying since 1972, all coming true, and it is accelerating.
On July 23, 2012, a massive solar storm almost destroyed all the electronics on this planet and you can imagine how we would be if that happened. That it didn't happen was due to divine intervention, but don't think it, or worse, won't happen.
I wrote about the psychic impulse some time ago. How the challenge is not, to tune in, but to shut it all out. No, I don't do the psychic thing any more. I don't want to see people or what's going to happen to them, because it is too painful. I don't care to go through the psychic pain of not only feeling the spirits of  the poor passengers blasted out of the sky in the Malaysian jet or the people burned to death by right wing mobs in Luhansk, Ukraine in that horrible civil war begun by the demons that govern us, but, the pain in people that I know.

It is enough to say I help people, then move on. I don't expect people to follow, or believe. Who needs fear to convince?

Just ask your self if you're doing what is right for you. Is this your path, or are you wasting time? Do you have a goal? For quite a period of time, I was where I could make a difference. I will see that through. But, I also have other things to do, so heed my message. If you are not at peace, you're doing something wrong. If there's something you have to do, do it!

But be warned. Your wrong action, your inaction, will haunt you. Listen to the warnings you get.

As I said in my last blog, miracles happen. But you can't wait for it. Make a difference, and I will help those who try.

Friday, May 16, 2014

Humanity, Resurrected

Miracles ahead
April was indeed the roughest month, for people and around the globe. For May though, and for some, I see hope ahead.

You really don't see how much hard work that requires, do you? (I just entered 'publish' when I meant 'save', LOL) Must be the Twitter influence, I was going to leave as is :)

I know my outlook is often bleak, and . I wish it were not so, but that's how it is. Clarity always comes at a price, and obstacles are obstacles.

But someone asked for help, and I offered. I hope it did help. And another, whom I came across recently, is now walking. Perhaps, humanity needs to learn to walk before it can run.

There's a thing about miracles.

Miracles come
not because
we demand
nor deserve
it is
random and
it is
We exist
from miracle
to miracle
Life, Death
Peace, Joy,
And Love.
I see hope for humanity.


Tuesday, April 22, 2014


Every thing happens for a reason
April is the longest month.

Interesting to see what I wrote about in the last two blogs come about.

"By next month, the crisis will have gotten worse, not just in politics but in people's lives, as two planets of the unexpected, AND a solar eclipse by the end of April, remind us how much we need to change, but do not."

More killings in Ukraine over Easter, and just before that, a Korean ferry sinks near Jeju Island, with 300 missing, or dead, most of them children.

And many friends I know were in crisis, in hospital or worrying about their future, in deep emotional pain for a variety of reasons.

Why do bad things happen to us? Is all this because it is part of our path, or, is it because where we cannot change, we keep repeating the same mistakes over and over again? Does this imply we can change things?

I will point out what I said a long time ago. I bring change. Wherever I go, and whoever I talk to, there will be change. But the greatest change is the one you attract to yourself, because of your own lack of spiritual balance. Which must, which does, include the physical and the material. And, our emotional balance. Which is here, represented by water.

Tomorrow, April 23, will be a very difficult day, as a Jupiter Mars Pluto Uranus Grand Cross becomes exact at 13 degrees of the cardinal signs, affecting people and countries ruled by Capricorn, Aries, Cancer and Libra. (The US, which I have had my eye on for some time, is ruled by Cancer. Some say the Russian Federation is ruled by Capricorn)

This aspect was felt for more than a month now, and will be felt, with waning aspects in the month to come. There will be great changes all over, and how and when it affects you, depends on the choices you make.

One way to discern  the future, is to read the signs. To what extent are you trapped by emotions and feelings of ego? Hurt and being hurt, running away from and searching for relationships? On a broader scale, why are we still trapped in a cycle of war? One book I read, Slaughterhouse 5, or the Children's Crusade by Kurt Vonnegut, awakened old feelings of hating war. Now, all I do is care about every person killed by drone warfare and our addiction to killing, the demonic failings of our murderous impulses.

Jeju island is, coincidentally, where a new controversial naval base is being built on what used to be a holiday resort, which now will have arms pointed at China, just as NATO wanted to have bases in Ukraine pointing at Russia. This is where I say karma is too easily misunderstood, but yes, children are being killed everywhere, are they not? In Iraq and Afghanistan, the US and everywhere? You just can not change, can you? And bad things will happen to good people.

Easter is about resurrection. Not about 'hope'. The more people hope, the more they sit, waiting for something to happen.

Resurrection is about what can happen, not what will. There has to be a spiritual awakening. You have to follow the right path. You have to change, no matter how difficult that process can be.

Wednesday, April 09, 2014

Teach The Children

More Joy In This, Than Any Where Else
Thoughts: Things are being shaken up. Me, too :) 
I didn't have a teacher, except what I learned myself, and from past lives. But I learned from the people I met, and things along the journey.
I spent a lot of time on Twitter recently, so if my writing's a bit sparse, you know why :)
But I wrote a lot of Twitter poetry.
Many of my friends are in hospital and thoughts are with them.
Events leading up to the Grand Cross this month have shaken us all. More to come.
Fascist revolution in Ukraine. Russia will assert itself.
Flight MH #370, lost in the ocean. As is the truth.

But the flight boxes may resurface.
My daughter saw that in a vision a year ago. Oriental faces, Indian Ocean.

Then a lot of spirits showed up.
The earthquake in Chile, 8.2. Smaller ones in L.A., places close to me.
Discovery of a new planet that helps me put together my astrological sign ruler ships theory.
It is the missing ruler of Libra. We will focus on Justice and Balance.
It is the time when a planet is discovered that establishes humanity's change.
I told a lesbian the person she was looking for was a man :)
Peaches Geldof, Bob Geldof's daughter, discovered dead. Sad.
The year I saved the cat "Ginger" in the UK,  a follower met and chatted with Bob Geldof.
She didn't talk about healing. Some things are meant to be, but, he, is a Libra.
Libra, Capricorn, Aries, Cancer, going through life shattering change now.
The U.S., a Cancer country, great changes now, but without justice, who knows?
Without spirituality, who knows. Spare me the New Age nonsense.
Pluto in Capricorn drives me to say truth.
Normally I just observe.
My children are dancing between dimensions.
Things, them, appearing and disappearing every where.

So much psychic shit happening.
My daughter met someone at school who has an illness.
His own healing ability has kept him alive.
She finds conventionally prettiness shallow.
People are being drawn to her for healing.
Yes, I will teach children, that is my joy.
Comas. Michael Schumacher, in a coma.

Being in a coma, you're stuck in this maze you cannot leave, stuck.
I've helped so many recover.
But there are some who were not meant to be, no matter how much I know I can help.
Humanity, in a coma.
Why am I drawn there?
Why am I drawn to help children and young people?
Because they can change, and they can change the world.
The rest, will be up to them.

ETA: Right after I wrote this, a 16 yr. old sophomore high school student in PA stabbed twenty students, many seriously injured.

This is what I was picking up: Uranus square Pluto, more shocks to the system.

These kids are so out of balance. Their parents don't, or know how to talk to them.

I am glad I taught my children.

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Adventures In Healing

I don't heal, I help
We just had another major snow storm; two buildings blew up in NYC; a Malaysian Airlines Flight MH 370 has gone down and debris has now been found close to its flight path. It looks like almost 300 people have died, RIP. I look at the number of people I have got involved with over the years, trying to help, and ask, why do people make the same mistakes, over and over? And yet, when I help people, life is felt so keenly, the adventure never stronger than at any time else. And yes, I make people nervous, because healing, and getting better, is never an easy path.
It has been a rough winter, and this is just one sign of the many imbalances in society. Russia has finally got fed up with the psychopathic behavior of the US and its EU allies, and established an autonomous republic in Crimea. By next month, the crisis will have gotten worse, not just in politics but in people's lives, as two planets of the unexpected, AND a solar eclipse by the end of April, remind us how much we need to change, but do not. Again, so be it.

We had a huge storm in February. I got the urge to go to a store some distance away, which didn't make sense, given the conditions. As I trudged back to the subway I came across an old woman, collapsed in the snow. I helped her get up, (she refused to let me call an ambulance) walked with her shopping bags to the subway, and had to stop as she clearly was unable to move more than a few meters without pausing to get her strength.

She wanted to let me go on, but I insisted on staying with her to her train, and destination. In the car, I offered healing; and held her hands, placed mine on various parts of body, mostly feeling the peace wash all over us. The crowded car watched us; a pin drop silence.

She told me she'd been to all the specialists and even alternative practitioners, but no one could find out what was wrong, they told her that her heart and circulation was just fine. Still, she had no strength, and could barely move. Also unable to gain weight. She'd tried vegetarianism, didn't suit her.

When you hold a person's hands, you pick up their vibrations and energies. I felt her problem was neuropathic in origin, as well as auto immune. The muscle control and strength just wasn't there. By the time we got to her station, she was fine. Strong enough to take up her bags and leave. She said she hadn't felt this way in decades (she's almost 80)

This is why I turned away from conventional medicine. It doesn't have the answers to the riddle of illness, which I believe always has physical, emotional and spiritual causes. Therefore, to expand the boundaries of medicine, I take up healing.

Gave her my card, in case she wanted to follow up. When she read it, said she'd called a month before, didn't follow up, but, that day felt compelled to go to the same health food store I was going to. Coincidence? Both of us were meant to meet.

When I told my wife about her, she asked her name, and said, oh my goodness, I know her, we've met many times at the store. Another coincidence.

She followed up with two more visits for healing, and now has regained her strength. When she met my wife, she told her how much better she is.

Funny, that. There are some people I never will be able to help, and a few, that no matter what, we are meant to meet.

Aside from my spiritual background and claims, the fact still is I wish to share this knowledge with others, that I do not heal people, but, I help them to help themselves. This the true adventure of healing, that one does not know the outcome of what will happen to this planet or its people, but, by having faith, and no fear, they can be helped.

Tuesday, February 11, 2014


Just friends, acting together
I've traveled so many places, yet it seems like there are places, people I still need to go to. Places that need healing, people. Hawaii, maybe. Japan, definitely. And one day, Africa, then back to Pakistan. Who knows if it ever will be America? That's the conundrum, since what I prophesied and started a long time ago (See A Spiritual Journey To The U.S.) is already happening, so do I really need to go? The UK, where I had so many ties, now flooding madly. Yes, I feel the pull, but maybe, now, it is people who have to come to me, not the other way around.
As we begin a new year, I know the theme for 2014 will be the establishment of spiritual community. All the signs are there, this will be a beginning of something very special, but also, very difficult for those who cannot change.
I remember all the people I have met. They were, those met briefly, those who connected only through spirit, and through the Internet. And, those I taught and did healings for in person, in the thousands.
One constant: every person I met, had some major event take place in their life afterwards, some coincidence, some crisis. They all reported change, many said they "felt peaceful", a change that lasted.

How many communities have I been a part of worldwide, started, then moved on? The Psychic community of Toronto, the Spiritual, the Healing? So many people have passed on, murder, suicide, cancer, burned out, as they try to change what cannot be changed. Not until people change themselves, accept and have faith. Yet people resist change. What can I say? You'll be forced to anyway, as your surroundings change, you must accept, or die. In ignorance.

I remember the good things, let go the bad. What you cannot change, or help, you let go of. The young Jewish lady who mouthed "I love you" at me from a distance when she thought I wasn't looking, and I walked back and said "I can read you, you know" to her embarrassment, but it was a sweet moment, remembered now 42 years later.

Amanda Knox's situation is now almost over, and I actually am more concerned for her well being (as well as that of her co-defendant, Raffaele Sollecito) than I am for the outcome; what will be, will be. There was a community of people that I helped, those who fought for justice, and in the process I helped the case, and many people (on both sides, truth be told) but my real promise was to the spirit of Meredith Kercher, and I have pretty much done what I said I would do. I have no attachment to this case, ready to move on.

But it is this planet that needs healing, not just people and spirits. To that end you need community. Check out my new website, Atlan Healing Centres and updates as they come through next month. The information here is freely given and shared, there will be no "donations", ever. But to bring about change, this is what you need, a critical mass. I am forming a community of healers, and anyone that asks for help, I will help. Why are you here?

Edit September 07, 2017:
Atlan Healing Centres site closed now as I focus on a new project. Will continue to post here and on Twitter (65.7k tweets, and more to come), LOL.