American Karma

I hate to say it, but will anyways

 

You ain't seen anything yet. From a blog 6 years ago:

 

The Horoscope of the United States of America 

August 24, 2011

 

So, if astrology is a karmic map, I can say the U.S. is in for some interesting times!

 

This is what I wrote shortly after the events of September 2001: "And if Earth Changes are required to bring about harmony, let them take place"

 

And: "This applies to all the people of the United States. You, and all your generations, are trapped inside a spiritual, emotional and karmic place, and never will be free until you heal the harm that was done in your name" 

Hurricane Harvey hit Texas August 25-26, 2017. It has caused catastrophic flooding but thankfully, not as bad as Hurricane Katrina in 2005.

I'm really tired of this. As I said in A Natural Life during Hurricane Sandy:
October 30, 2012

This time around I kept asking myself, what difference does it make? As I said last year with the unprecedented tornadoes, as I said after Hurricane Katrina, Haiti earthquake, UK floods, the Gulf  oil spill, and the Fukushima disaster, that there would be more, and worse, until humanity changed. Surely, people could change? Yet all I have had this year was reminders about how difficult it was for people to change. I told them, but all that happened was that I actually lost people I was trying to help.

Oh, well. I had a premonition then, and just as Donald Trump announced increased war in Afghanistan and the solar eclipse hit the US last week, I saw another disaster about to happen, and saw the flooding. This is your karma, and it isn't your direct fault, but you allowed it to happen.

What can you do? Read everything I wrote in the 275+ articles here (there are thousands more elsewhere) The greatest imperative is to find a spiritual balance and heal the earth.

 



Suicide Is Painless

That suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

And I can take or leave it if I please

 

One of my students had someone at work commit suicide recently. She didn't know when it happened, but fell and threw her hip that weekend. (Thus shifting internal organs I had to move back, but that's a story for my book how we internalize trauma).



 

When she went to her office on the Monday, still not knowing, she and her co-workers felt an unnatural cold that really scared them.

 

So I not only had to help the physical pain and increase hip mobility, but ended up balancing organs, I also had to, heal the unquiet spirit within her, and, show how to exorcize her office.

 

A Muslim mystic (Amil) in Karachi once told me how when a person commits suicide they relive the pain of that suicide a hundred thousand times in the state called Barzakh, the in between stage after death. Oh I said, Tibetan Buddhists call it "Bardo", and what you call punishment in the afterlife can well be karma in that life or the next. Anyhow. They also teach that repeating a prayer a hundred thousand times can summon a djinn. Ahem.

 

Respect for all beliefs but when you kill yourself there's a rip in the continuum that affects you, your spirit, and those who are close to you. You don't get punished, but, have already punished yourself. And your karma, shifts.

 

In that stage of where the spirit goes, there's the white light, and the darkness. You see where you went and where you will go. You always have the choice to come back, whenever you wish. Most do not get the choice where they end up in the next life. They know, but always choose to come back. Then they forget.

 

But you ARE bound to the past. You are bound to the traditions, culture, religion, and parents YOU choose. You can change it, or you can't.  You can let it go, difficult as it might be. Or not.

Try to understand your karma.

Yes, there's a wave of hopelessness taking over the planet, but it need not be that way. Trust and have faith.

 

If you're considering suicide, even dwelling on it, don't.

 

And try to get off the drugs (or meds), please?

 

Suicide, like life, ISN'T painless.

 

 



God Doesn't Care

Or give a damn either :)

 

On Sept 30, a tornado touched down in the Seattle area. Very unusual weather for that time of the year, remarkable for many things. But mostly, it touches upon the questions I have been asking for some time now. Why do people resist change? Why do they keep making the same mistakes over and over again, when it is wrong for them, and leads to suffering?

 

I have been following the case of the Murder Of Meredith Kercher for some time now. Each killing, each murder by people or through war creates this hole in our collective consciousness which is very sad to observe, from my position of wanting to help humanity, so yes, this particular case became important to me for a while. Not to affect its outcome in any way, but to observe. I still send reminders to people once in a while though :)

 

On Sept. 30, Amanda Knox's appeal against her conviction for the murder of Meredith Kercher began in Florence, Italy. She is awaiting the results of her appeal in her home town of Seattle. Was the tornado a message for her? Does that even matter for people who are so stuck in karma they might not ever listen? There was a funny message for me for sure, the tornado blew the roof off a garage door manufacturer in the US, and I'm waiting for a replacement garage door from the US. Time for me to move on :)

Yesterday, November 08, a super typhoon hit the Philippines, carrying the strongest winds recorded in a very long time, 200 + mph. I spared a thought for an old disciple of mine from the Philippines, Jennifer, who had a very hard time of it changing, and in the end, repeated her mistakes. She was in such a wonderful position to realize her dreams, then backed off to a place where she was comfortable.

The last two weeks have been very interesting for me. My landlord was upset because I refused to let him get away with something, so he threatened to evict me and my family. I told him to go ahead and do what he liked, this isn't the first time of threats and bluster, but, really, I feel sorry for him, he looks ill.

Then I had to go and bail out a friend in court. A whole series of events ensued, and if I hadn't intervened, he would still be under arrest awaiting trial. But the problem arose from his not taking my advice in the first place. When a relationship is over, it's over. Why keep holding on, why do people keep making the same mistakes?

I ran into a fellow healer the other day. He started as a student, didn't continue the training, that was fine. In the first week of training, the Supreme Court passed a ruling that saved him over a million dollars. When it became clear he had reached the limits of his learning with me, I left, since I had no more reason to be there.

Then he got into an er, space where he got married and sunk more than a million dollars into a house he could not sell. It was nice to see him, but also a lesson for others. Another man, the Iranian I went all the way to Tehran to help him and his family, is $5 million in debt because he, too was stuck in a place where he couldn't accept my advice. So, when something is over, move on. It's up to people to get away from their comfort zones, let go of their ego.

Walking home the other night, I came across a skunk on the sidewalk. We said hi to each other, I went home. The Medicine Cards by Jamie Sams and David Carson, has this to say about Skunk Medicine: Respect, but also, boundaries. Respect your self, respect the other, expect respect from others. And if threatened, know how to repel. Otherwise, be nonchalant. If people do not change, then that is life and the human condition, and it is up to them.

But: God does care. That is why you are given knowledge, and wisdom, if only you knew how to use it.

And now, the archangels are dancing in our home, and one of them, Michael, runs in our back yard as a red squirrel, even though their natural habitat is in Europe and Siberia.

Yesterday, a hawk flew over Chloe, then  three more danced over her head, and one landed in a tree, and, ripping a small bird, calmly ate dinner.

This is a message from spirit; it is up to you to follow.  God does care, but first, you must do the right thing.











Meredith Kercher, R.I.P.

1985-2007

Meredith Kercher, a 21 year old British student, was sexually assaulted and murdered in Perugia, Italy, on November 01, 2007. Coincidentally, I had just left the U.K. after a month long trip teaching new healers in The Way Of Atlan. Over the next many years I found myself being drawn more and more to the case, as first  Ivorian immigrant Rudy Guede, then, her roommate Amanda Knox and Amanda's boyfriend Raffaele Sollecito were found guilty of sexual assault, murder, and theft, in 2009, with Knox also being found guilty of the crime of callunnia, for falsely accusing her boss, Patrice Lumumba of the crime. Guede, choosing a fast track trial, got 16 years imprisonment as a consequence, and Knox and Sollecito got 26 and 25 years respectively.

A subsequent appeal for Knox and Sollecito got them freed by a controversial decision of the Perugian Court of Appeals, which allowed Knox to return to America. An appeal of that decision was filed by the Perugian attorney general, and consequently, on March 26, 2013, the Criminal Division of the Italian Supreme Court, Corte De Cassazione, allowed all fourteen points of his appeal and, repudiating the entire decision of the Appeals Court, ordered that Amanda Knox and Raffaele Sollecito would have to face a new Appeal trial in Florence. It was a stunning victory for the prosecution, and I was there in court that day.

As you know, I've written extensively about the case, here on this blog but also as administrator of a website called PERUGIA MURDER FILE dedicated to helping  find justice for Meredith Kercher. Much of the information published here is due to the investigative reporting of the many volunteers of Perugia Murder File and several sources who contacted us, but all opinions expressed here, are strictly my own. .

During the hearings, I met many reporters from CNN, NYT, AP and The Telegraph, all of whom asked what my interest in the case was. Why was I there, indeed? The following is a lengthy account of the five years of my journey to Rome.

2011 was an interesting year for me. I had to shift directions, just as the world was about to go through intense turmoil. It was a time for prophecy, all of which was unfolding before me:

RECAP 2011 (March 09, 2012) gives the bigger picture, but, this was why I got involved:

WHAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN: (June 26, 2011) Was my first blog here where I drew attention to the astrological signs in this case, and what they signified about the means and motives for the murder. They showed quite clearly, the circumstances of the night in question, but also, the long hold it would take on the public consciousness and the political interference in this trial. This was when I first felt that Knox would be acquitted in the appeal, though I decided not to publish that last snippet. There was a long road ahead, I knew, so best to wait till I could get more information.

Still, my reasons for getting involved: I knew I would be using the Internet as a way of getting in touch with people, and for more than 10 years, I did, through my websites and writing on chat forums like Huffington Post. (Where I first started discussing this case extensively) But eventually I got tired of going on about politics and social justice. People were powerless and didn't want to think about anything that required difficult solutions. I would focus on spiritual things only. Then, I came across the Meredith Kercher murder. There were many things in it, the power of coincidence, the psychology, the astrological component, but it was above all the underlying spirituality that drew me in.

Yes, four lives, wasted. Yes, the victim was forgotten even as the accused murderers, Amanda Knox, Raffaele Sollecito, and Rudy Guede were convicted. Knox and Sollecito even attracted some sort of perverse publicity and book deals that made it all about them.

As Marcus Aurelius once said, "justice is the basis of all things". Yes, that was important, but you see, it was a symbol. You know I claim to see things. I knew the future of Italy would be important. I knew the Vatican would be going through change, and as stories of papal assassination plots and corruption come out, sure. Yes, it would come down to a battle between two Italys, and that drew me in. Maybe it was also the unquiet spirit of Meredith Kercher that I could hear, calling for justice, and I knew that justice would be hard come by, in this case.

But, spirituality calls for balance. If we cannot try to right a wrong to one person, then how can we right that which is out of balance on the planet? So, I devoted myself to the case.

There were times when I thought I needed to move away from it. Yes, the case consumed some people, and I wondered why. Perhaps they had some deep psychological need, but I could step away from it? Yes, there  was the personal element. I have daughters and Meredith reminded me of them. Arline Kercher comes from the same city in Pakistan I come from. The spiritual coincidences that occurred over time were compelling, but there had to be a deeper reason.

In the end, I stayed. Out of loyalty to people I cared about, because they needed my help. The spirit of Meredith and people that needed healing. It was important that I be there. I knew my presence would make a difference somehow, so in the end, I stayed.

This er, energetic activity drew the attention of Knox loyalists who made it their business to investigate me and my background. Since I never hid it, sure they came across my main website and blog, and the personal attacks followed. The funny thing is, I have investigated the case extensively, on both sides. I also read the trial transcripts (translated from the Italian) and would have felt as strongly, if not more, were I convinced Knox and Sollecito were innocent; defending the wrongfully accused is very important to me. In the end, it wasn't my spiritual beliefs that convinced me, or the psychological or astrological observations of someone I never met, but, hard facts presented at trial. As things stand now, Knox and Sollecito have been found guilty, though under Italian law that has not been finalized. There still is an appeals process and final confirmation at Cassazione that must be confirmed.

The Media lies:
There have been a lot of lies, factual errors, and distortions in reporting about the case in North American media, with ABC and CNN as the main culprits in this. White woman (Homus Americanus) in peril from foreigners always appeals to the xenophobic and weak minded elements of our society, and the networks and other media plays to it, for ratings reasons. An internet campaign set up by the Friends Of Amanda Knox fed the defense point of view to the public; even the Wikipedia account of the case was manipulated by teams of anonymous volunteers to reflect what turned out, in the end, to be a PR exercise to influence public opinion and invite political interference in the legal affairs of an independent country.

Political interference:
Donald Trump threatened to boycott Italy, and Knox's Senator Maria Cantwell (Dem-WA) issued the following statements:

Dec 04 2009
Cantwell Statement on Amanda Knox Guilty Verdict

WASHINGTON, DC –Senator Maria Cantwell (D-WA) issued the following statement on Amanda Knox’s guilty verdict decided today by an Italian court in Perugia, Italy. Knox, a 22-year-old Seattle native, was accused of murdering her British school roommate Meredith Kercher in November 2007. Knox stood trial with co-defendant and former Italian boyfriend Raffaele Sollecito.

Senator Cantwell’s statement:

“I am saddened by the verdict and I have serious questions about the Italian justice system and whether anti-Americanism tainted this trial. The prosecution did not present enough evidence for an impartial jury to conclude beyond a reasonable doubt that Ms. Knox was guilty. Italian jurors were not sequestered and were allowed to view highly negative news coverage about Ms. Knox. Other flaws in the Italian justice system on display in this case included the harsh treatment of Ms. Knox following her arrest; negligent handling of evidence by investigators; and pending charges of misconduct against one of the prosecutors stemming from another murder trial.

I am in contact with the U.S. Ambassador to Italy and have been since the time of Ms. Knox’s arrest. I will be conveying my concerns to Secretary of State Hillary Clinton. I have also been in touch with the Embassy of Italy in Washington, DC.

Then another on her acquittal:

Oct 03 2011
Cantwell Statement Regarding Amanda Knox Appeal Verdict

WASHINGTON, D.C. – Senator Maria Cantwell (D-WA) issued the following statement on Amanda Knox’s appeal verdict decided today by an Italian court in Perugia, Italy.

“I am glad that the appeals court gave Amanda the fair hearing that she deserves. All countries must live up to their international commitments to provide a fair trial by an impartial tribunal to those accused of crimes.

“Amanda’s parents, family and friends have been through an incredible ordeal. We are all thankful that she will be free to return to Seattle as soon as possible.”

Judicial misconduct:
Another American official, Knox family friend King County Superior Court Judge Michael Heavey, sent letters using his judicial stationery, also attacking the Italian police and Public Prosecutor PM Mignini, for which he was officially reprimanded by the Washington State Commission of Judicial Conduct:

JUDGE MICHAEL HEAVEY

He promised not to use his office to speak out on Amanda Knox's behalf, then continued to do so. He boasted that their lobbying influenced the Italian judiciary. He, and many of Amanda Knox's family and supporters, also funneled tens of thousands of dollars to one of the main sources of attacks on the Perugian police investigators and prosecutor Mignini; an Italian blogger and reporter named Francesco Sforza, also known as Frank Sfarzo, whose scurrilous attacks caused his website to be shut down by the Italian authorities.

It was this Frank Sfarzo, on the run from Italy for assaulting policemen after a domestic dispute, who ended up in America being hosted by Amanda Knox's parents and Judge Heavey. Frank Sfarzo, and my interaction with him in this case, deserves a separate subsection in this blog, which I will get to, but here's a capsule of his arrests in the United States and being thrown out of Canada. Frank Sfarzo Arrests: which was written about far more extensively on our website.

Friends Of Amanda:
Unique to this case was the footprint of a PR agency led internet advocacy group which spammed hundreds of forums, social and news web sites, and Wikipedia, to create the feel of widespread public support for Amanda Knox. They appropriated the image of Meredith Kercher to say that her family had been misled by the Italians, which caused even more anguish to the Kerchers. They had lost their daughter, and now the friends of the accused were using her picture to pretend concern for 'the truth'. And, as their surrogates started to investigate me online, I investigated them :) Their activities had been under the radar for a long time, but it is in my nature to uncover secrets, and I came across the evidence of their judicial, political, psychological, and media activities which I wrote about on Perugia Murder Files. (dot Net; there is another site called dot Org, but I wrote for dot Net)

Raffaele Sollecito:
The other accused, Amanda's boy friend, is the son of a wealthy doctor and well connected political family (with credible sources saying also, mafia connected). He was a heavy drug experimenter, knife fetishist, and lover of violent Japanese manga, and some of the scenes found in comics at his flat mirrored the crime scene. It was his withdrawal of Amanda Knox's alibi that caused her to become a suspect and led to her arrest but their suspicious behaviour had already caused them to come under the radar. His sister Vanessa was forced to leave the carabinieri, the Italian state police, for her interference in the case, and she was caught on wiretap telling her father to use their political connections to have a sympathetic judge appointed. Raffaele's family was also accused of leaking a shocking police video of Meredith's body to a TV station in their home town . His lawyer, Giulia Bongiorno, was also the head of the parliamentary judiciary committee, a conflict of interest that may have influenced the actions of many senior judges of the Appeals court, which led to an experienced criminal judge being removed and replaced with an inexperienced financial crimes judge, Hellmann, whose acquittal of Knox and Sollecito was so bizarre the Supreme Court completely nullified his rulings this March 26. His lawyer was also accused of attempting to bribe two prison stoolies to give false testimonies to the court. Lastly, his family is also accused of using their connections to have the third accused, Rudy Guede, beaten up twice in prison to get him to shut up, yet he did speak up and accuse them directly in court, just as I predicted the day previously in my What Might Have Been article cited above.

Raffaele Sollecito and Amanda Knox received lucrative book contracts (hers came to $4 million) shortly after their release. I felt very strongly they should not profit from their stories until they were declared innocent under Italian law, so wrote to the producers of various TV shows. Who knows if our lobbying had an effect, but his book tour and sales flopped miserably. With the recent Cassazione ruling, I wonder how well Knox's book (coming out April 30) will do, but, far for me to suggest to anyone not to buy a book, if the first 22 pages of her book posted by her German publisher are any indication, maybe you might want to read it through your public library? ;)

Sollecito and Knox's fate are entwined karmically for all time. He cannot blame Knox for instigating the murder, nor can she accuse him. I sat in the same row as his father during the Supreme Court hearing. No matter his actions in subverting justice, I felt waves of compassion for him, as he sat there watching control of the case slip away from him. But in the end, he still has his son, while the Kerchers have lost their daughter.

Amanda Knox:
There is much speculation about the mind of Amanda Knox. A Times magazine blog article speculated she might have a form of autism, which piqued my interest, but, not having met her or having access to her records, I won't go there. Whatever inferences I drew about her psychology, drug use and sexuality, using the tools of astrology and Chinese medicine (ahem) were corroborated by many who knew her personally and reported by the media, but yes, I do have an interest in the case because of the possible implications of a drug induced psychosis. However, the following article is not a diagnosis of Amanda Knox, it reflects my own interest in the nature of increased mental illness in Western Society.

THE CRIMINAL MIND (September 02, 2011)

Introduction: 
"IThe question of criminality has been much in the news lately, as wild gangs of youth rampaged through British cities, and wild gangs of feral financial speculators rampaged through the world's economies.

As a scientist I wonder about the pathologies involved, and as a spiritual person I wonder about root causes.

So this is about where we are going as a society. Are we descending into criminality, and is the problem getting worse? I also wonder about the connection between criminality and mental illness."

Here is an astrological analysis I wrote: 

A PSYCHO-ASTROLOGICAL PERSPECTIVE ON THE RELATIONSHIPS BETWEEN THE PROTAGONISTS (October 21, 2011)

notable for a respectful dialogue between two sides on this issue. One writer asked, 

"To be truthful, I am one of those people who wants to be only rational, but is drawn to this type of analysis. So I cannot fully call it "quackery" - although logic says it must be so. I suppose Jung was both rational and drawn to things such as psycho-astrology. In your opinion, what were the "indicators" of the acquittals, and moreover, why were acquittals fated? thanks smk"

My answer was: 

"Hi, SMK.
I started to develop very strong feelings about the acquittal in June 2011. So when I checked that against the astrological chart I saw a Grand Cross pattern with Sun and Venus at stressful 90 degree angles to Saturn, Uranus and Pluto, it all pointed to sudden, unexpected events. Since they impacted AK's chart so strongly I felt she would be acquitted.

The Sept 27 New Moon prior to the decision was favorable to her chart, and the fact it was due on Oct. 3, the day OJ Simpson was acquitted, convinced me. (That she would be released -  my belief in guilt or innocence are  based on the evidence which has been adequately argued else where and the courts that found them guilty, a verdict that stands as of now. OJ Simpson, also shares the same birthday as AK, July 9, as does Jodi Arias, a coincidence I am sure)

Jupiter in the 12th points to powerful allies, and that she was fated to be released.

We know that human beings have strong connections to the unknown. IMO astrology just barely touches the surface in trying to understand it.

But Jung certainly used Astrology to form the basis of his Psychological theory"

And so, when asked about the Cassazzione hearing on Perugia Murder File, I said the prosecution would win, provided there was no judicial corruption. Which, IMO, was what happened in the Hellmann acquittal. I strongly suspected attempts would be made, and it was important for me to be in Rome. Not to influence anything, just to be there to witness. My influence extends on a far more esoteric plane :)

There was indeed much happening in Italy. I wrote here, in QUO VADIS? which was about the horoscope of Italy and its future:

"This is the sadness of being able to see the future. On the one hand you see signs of what lies ahead. On the other hand you know it might be too late. You try to warn friends and the people you love, but what happens then depends on the choices they make.

The answer, for the people of Italy and the world is that political and economic change will not be enough. All we ever get is the semblance of change, without anything real.

Unless there is real spiritual change, things will get much worse, sorry."

Another article, SATAN~ISM (December 17, 2011) begins with the trial of a refugee boat captain and his crew in Italy; they had killed many refugees by throwing them overboard in a voodoo ceremony at sea. I focused more and more on Italy, a riff on satanism, masonry, and my experience with these phenomena. Interesting that prosecutor Mignini is unfairly criticized for being 'obsessed' with it, when the truth is there were such elements in a related case, Il Mostro de Firenze (The Monster of Florence) speculated about by many prosecutors before he became involved. There certainly are elements of demonic possession around the MOF case, if not Knox, Sollecito and Guede, but never mind. I focus on the psychology.

I wrote about my experience with the Process Church, a group that influenced Charles Manson and David "Son of Sam" Berkowitz, and the fascination with Satanism in contemporary society, and how it is used as a means of psychological mind control through ritualistic acts. And I have walked around Perugia, Italy, and there definitely is a strong whiff of that there in the Etruscan ruins, with its focus on death and the spirit. This article was also what led me to eventually meet "Bettina".

Then I wrote about THE COSTA CONCORDIA TRAGEDY (January 29, 2012)

"Just look at the coincidences. Over the last year I've been focused on Italy, for its political and financial difficulties, for a murder case that had a unique spiritual component, and because so much of it is a reflection of what's happening world wide.

So I see my task as being to warn people, and sometimes, sadly, the Universe has to send reminders. Now I don't expect to convince the rationally inclined, so, just look at the coincidences."

"So, Why Italy? True, I was drawn to it by a particular case. I knew there were going to be spectacular changes in Europe which showed the breakdown of the old order 

THE RAPE OF EUROPA (October 02, 2011) 

but ultimately, I was drawn to a point in the future I saw coming.

I hold at least four meditations a year. They all have a specific focus on trends that are coming into play, but, they also are earth healing exercises. And the sad thing is, as I said so many years ago, that if earth changes and disasters are needed to wake people up, then let it happen. They are messages for people, and if they do not listen, so be it. The floods in England, the earthquake in Haiti, the Fukushima disaster, were all preceded by my meditations, and written about here.

They're not even punishments. Why blame poor people in Haiti or Iraq for the disasters that befall them? No, the message is for all of us, on this planet. If something happens to the least of us, then it is up to every one on this planet to learn from it, and prevent future disasters. The earth is not in balance, and it is up to us to bring it back into balance.

And if your rational mind only tells you there's nothing we can do, then so be it. Just please don't say "I prayed to move a mountain, but it didn't move". That's an untrue argument. We are all healers and magicians, but someone has to show you how.

We had very little snow this year, only rain, which isn't good for the crops in the summer. There's a lot of imbalance there. But shortly after my December 16 meditation, we had a lovely snowfall. Then just before my next meditation in January, the one billion dollar mega cruise ship Costa Concordia ran aground off an island in Italy. The captain of the ship was careless, though it appears the cruise line, Carnival, is equally culpable. Still, here's the thing:

• It could have been much worse. Even though 32 died, 4200 were saved.
• It happened on my birthday.

I had written about "Two Italys" in Quo Vadis and said that people would have to make choices between what type of country they wanted for themselves. This was pooh poohed by sceptics, but after the disaster Italian newspapers started writing about Two Italys."

In HEALING THE UNQUIET SPIRIT (April 07, 2012) 

Which refers not only to Meredith Kercher, but the many affected by this case, and all of us. So, we are surrounded by spirits. But we also have the unquiet spirit within.

I heal the unquiet spirit.

Then, finally, by the time of my Christmas Meditation, the focus of which was 

WHY ROME? (December 19, 2012) I knew the pope would be gone soon, and there would be a decisive shift in the case. I should go to Rome in the new year, because my spiritual journey required it.

( To be continued in Part II, PERUGIA )

We ARE The Life Chosen

Me in Japan, age 4

We are born with certain gifts, but don't know how to use them. We are born with karma, but don't know how to release it. We know the life chosen, then, we forget.

Over the last two years I have seen the changes that are taking place on the planet, in the spiritual dimensions, and in myself. I have tried to warn people, but am aware that only those who are prepared to listen, and change, will ever understand what I am saying.

There was a child to be born to one person, who wasn't ready. That child is now somewhere.. else. I saw my mother become sick, and for a moment thought she would die. But she didn't. I knew that someone would become ill, and tried to warn him. He did not get the message, and became ill. I saw many family members becoming ill, and possibly dying, and that my father-in-law would be next. He was rushed into the operating room for emergency heart surgery last week. My mother-in-law asked me to help him, so, I did.

He needed to have both valves replaced, and the best surgeons were in Toronto, so they might have to do one valve then, another one later. But that day, and only for that day, there was a visiting surgeon from Toronto. He worked for nine hours, and replaced both valves, with animal valves instead of plastic, and they last 20 years instead of 5, and he won't have to take anti-rejection drugs either. He had a temporary pacemaker put in, and they thought he'd have to have a permanent pacemaker, and now, he doesn't.

When he was due for the surgery, he said to the surgeon he'd be "hoping for luck". The surgeon drew himself up and said "It's not about luck, but faith. You have to believe you'll be all right, and you have to know about God".

The nurses and doctors are agreed on this: his speedy recovery in just six days is a miracle, and, I'm glad for him. But I also said this to Chloe and her mother: sometimes, it's better to just let them go. Yes, I helped him because you asked me. Yes, I can release karma for someone else, though it is better they do it themselves, otherwise how can they learn? And I said this too, if he didn't learn about faith, then he hasn't released his karma, just delayed it.

I remember a dear person whose mother just had a stroke. She knew she wouldn't be able to deal with her death, and asked me to help her, then watched as I did my healing in the hospital room and all her vital signs returned. And now her mother's just fine, but impossible as ever, while the daughter continues to be afraid to let her go. My father in-law had been warned, but wouldn't stop smoking, and now he's forced to change. Another friend, when her parents died, was able to let go.

We chose the parents to be born to. We chose the lessons we must learn, and the life chosen, is the person we become. I see this picture of me, at age 4. My beloved grand mother had just passed away. I already was talking to and seeing spirit. I saw I was meant to make a difference in people's lives. I knew I would have great happiness, and great sadness, in the life ahead...

I could have, I know, changed that at any time. I could have avoided pain.

But: We chose the life ahead of us, we chose to be born. Running away from that, and having regrets, was not the path I chose. I choose to love and forgive my parents, I chose the path that would bring me learning and becoming a better person, I chose to follow my purpose.

Do you remember my Michael Jackson drowning man story? How one could not help the drowning man, because that was his path chosen? The same principle, that THIS may be their path, applies to my parents, to my children, and much as I love them, I have sometimes had to accept what they had to go through. Because then, they would be the person they chose to be.

And yet, because I love all my suffering children, I return over and over again, and all one has to do is ask, and I will do whatever I can to help.

But the lesson is still this: Have faith, trust you are loved, and know God.