Thursday, August 20, 2009

My Spiritual Community

I know, I know
Here I am, having just finished Cults I have known, and insulting others, then saying, no, I didn't start one myself.
The fact is I'm a solitary being, and much more amenable to living in a cave with a few necessities (and my books of course)
So here I am, a teen, knowing my purpose was to serve. I wasn't shy, quite the opposite, but I was reserved. But when it came to talking, to helping people, I was a gabby one.
Spirit suggested I study Palmistry and Astrology to understand my visions. I did, then was a counselor at age 16. Not fortune telling, but, discussing future possibilities with my friends in college and University. And I was struck by how lonely people were, and would be.
At age 20, I was teaching meditation, and what we had was not a group, or a cult, but a healing community. Most were ex-followers of Guru Maharaji, funnily enough. But there were people from the Process, and Hare Krishna. Seeing the damage done to these spiritual seekers was a confirmation of what I had already observed first hand at their gatherings, and was where I said I wouldn't follow that path. I'm glad too that I didn't. One thing I knew from my parents, from myself: don't misuse your gifts, you can do great good, or great evil.
So I followed the spiritual path in the 70's, put it on hiatus in the 80's as I worked on health and spiritual crisis issues: how much could I tell people what I saw about them and the future? Even in trying to help them could I not do harm? Answer: keep your mouth shut.
Then it was time to change again and I quit my job in the 90's and started full time healing and counselling, and the first thing people asked, was when would I start teaching? And it seemed so natural, and I started with what I knew about the chakras, except, they were also doorways into the void, a pathway to God. And yes it seemed natural I should once again teach meditation. I call it Living Meditation. It's not something one does, it's the space one is in. A space one can always be inside.
Many asked, did this mean they should divorce their husbands and move in with me? And I said No! Yet it seemed they were asking about community, and so, I started one. I think we were all feeling our way through this but it was a wonderful experience, nevertheless.
So I asked a group of my students if they would like to start a spiritual community with me. We would share a large home, and I would teach them to heal, and hold regular meditations. There were 4 women and three men in the end, including me. As soon as I said, this isn't going to be a sex cult, the two men left. They said I was too controlling! :)
The women, it turned out later, had drawn lots to see which nights they would spend with me, but I was already committed to Chloe. Sorry, ladies.
It was a large house in Toronto, with a huge meditation space, and up to 50 people were coming regularly every week on Thursdays for Meditation Night. We ALL took turns washing the bathroom and floors, and cooking as well, though it turned out Chloe and I were more, er, domestic.
Over the course of a year we became quite well known in Toronto, and several thousand people came to our healings, meditations and workshops (We all had our space to do our thing)
Aruna was born in that house, and it was, for one perfect year, a vibrant community, where miracles took place.
It was in this house that the idea of discipleship came to me. The step after being a student was to be a disciple. It was a choice, and it was a test, for me and them. I know I made it difficult, but the fact is, it was difficult for me too. I didn't want people who weren't ready. Then, as soon as the center was successful, I shut it down, to go on A Spiritual Journey to the United States
where I went from one city to another, and saw many times more people than I had in Canada.
Truly, they were in great need of healing, and even more so today, but not, until one person shows me the faith I ask for.
I came back to Canada, gathered the disciples again, then moved to Europe for several months. While there, there was a split within the group, and when I came back, had to start again. I reflected on that, and want to share with you.
I know I'm not an easy person to be with. That I can read what's inside you is not easy, for you or for me. If I test you, I test myself even more. And above all I ask, if I acted with integrity and truth. That we split, was neither your fault nor mine. But in the end, I gave you the choice of freedom, and thank you, all of you, my absent friends, for what you did for me and my family. I may have given much, but, I also received much.
So on the one hand, I was free to follow my own direction than worry about my responsibility to them. On the other hand, I didn't have the support system any more. But oh the freedom!
One early morning, in Hungary 1996. I am in a valley watching hundreds of men, women, and children walk down to us from villages all around, to see the healer from afar, and I was filled with love for our common humanity. We went to 10 different countries in four months, and again, I helped thousands. We saw real models of community living, in European villages, than I ever created in the hothouse atmosphere of a spiritual group. But the fact is, both models are valid.
We arrived back in Canada with 5 dollars in our pocket. I started again, and learned how to ask for help, much as I didn't know how. From 2000 on, I gathered many more students and disciples. They helped me, and I them. I travelled all over again, and met so many more, and this was the most exciting time of my life. And what I learned, I share with you. But I will not lose sight...
I know my goal. I will help you with yours. But I will tell you what I expect, instead of leaving it to whim. I have now reached millions of people through my websites and writing. My community is the people I met, my followers the ones I helped, and the ones who helped me. Neither temple nor ashram shall be my home...

8 comments:

Man From Atlan said...

And here I am, starting another community in my new home...

Xanadu said...

"If I'd really wanted to insult you I'd have called you a Frankfurtian, and not a Freudian :) But I do accept you as who you say you are, and not a provocateur."

Hmmm...well, thanks!

If you think I'm offended at anything you've said, sweetie, you're sadly mistaken! I'm an easygoing type who never gets upset with anything you say — so stop being an idiot and apologizing for having original opinions of your own!

I enjoyed reading your new article. If I didn't write in earlier to leave a comment, it's because I've been absolutely snowed down with work. And I had nothing particular to say except: "Brilliant! Wish I could write like that!"

Or, if you prefer, "Rubbish! I've never read such crap in my life!"

Take your pick. :)

No, I was never a provocateur. Still less a "troll", as Berkeley foolishly alleged. I'm just a "japer", a lover of practical jokes and personas. I enjoy a good laugh. That's me. Madame Comique.

As I'm so busy, but would nevertheless like to reply to your interesting comment on Freud and the Frankfurters which you have just left on the previous thread, allow me to cut and paste a full comment from another website by Jewess "Ruth Bernstein".

Ms Bernstein has obviously been following our discussion here and has plagiarized my Freud anecdote, but her views on sexuality are remarkably similar to my own. The only difference between me and Ruthie is that she is a Jewish supremacist — whereas I, as you know, am a sincere and committed anti-Zionist shiksa.

Anonymous said...

Ruth Bernstein August 24, 2009 at 10:36 am

[in reply to]

SABERTOOTH August 24, 2009 at 4:02 am

"Ruth . . . Do you honestly think the goyim are going to roll over en masse for you and your deranged kind?"

Ruth Bernstein:

Apologies to everyone for my intemperate outburst of yesterday. This was caused by the ingestion of certain intoxicating substances! :)

Regarding your comment above, I have this to say:

Mass immigration, legal as well as illegal, is now swamping America and turning it into a multicultural zoo. This is serving the interests of organized Jewry. You and your white Anglo-Saxon culture is being systematically undermined and destroyed. By us. The Jews.

Traditional values, especially Christian culture and mores, have been swept away and subverted — thanks to fifty years of cultural revolution set in motion by a cabal of Jews who fled Nazi Germany in the 1930s and settled in the United States.

This group, as many of you will know, is commonly known as the Frankfurt School.

Taking their inspiration from Nietzsche, Darwin, Marx and Freud, these Jewish revolutionaries preached a doctrine of despair and nihilism and attempted to persuade the goyim that solace and salvation lay henceforth in a hedonistic creed of perverted sexuality.

It was Freud who said: “Sexual morality is contemptible. I advocate an incomparably freer sexual life.”

This included homosexuality, compulsive round-the-clock masturbation, incest, bestiality, and any other sexual aberration that the easily duped goyim could be persuaded to adopt.

As he stood on the deck of the ship bringing him to America, the country he planned to corrupt, Freud turned to a Jewish colleague and joked: “If only the Americans knew we were bringing them the plague!”

These are the dark forces to which you, the goyim, are now being subjected by organized Jewry.
Can you resist these forces? By all means, try!

Anonymous said...

You guys are all so clever that I can't even figure out what you're talking about. Community means sharing something. Finding a common denominator. Who are you? Who are you beyond clever? Beyond religion and race our Dna is the same, informed by light,emitting light. We are all each other.

Anonymous said...

Glad I'm back home yet again:)
Chaieomie

Man From Atlan said...

Glad you're home again too, Chaieomie :)

Man From Atlan said...

Yes, Anonymous, we're all beings of light (or dark, but I have no problem there either)
There are the man made structures, religions, cultures, races and nations. Then cults and spiritual groups; I've written about them too.
I could say I'm starting a new religion, but what I have in mind is community. And not a collection of temples, but a group of people all around the world, connected to each other by energy. And that energy is whatever you've received from me..

Man From Atlan said...

We aren't sniping at each other, Xanadu, or Ruth, as the case may be. How could I be anything but a teasing older brother to someone who believes in miracles, and had such a wonderful experience with Subud?